Hi Doga! I commend you for having the courage to share these traumatic memories with such vulnerability. I can tell how traumatized you were as a 10-year-old! Yes, you're right that many of the behavior and decisions made by your adult caregivers weren't well thought out or downright ridiculous. It is a good thing that you are now processing these memories from your adult perspective and leaning in to your feelings. I think the young part in you that had been angry is now thankful for your recognition of this anger. Through writing, you now have access to this very important emotion. I understand how the past events triggered you emotionally after writing it. But triggers are trailheads to what's deeply hidden in our psyche. Painful and uncomfortable emotions often point us to where truth lies--your personal truth. Unless you face it, it will come back again and again to bite you. But if you continue on with your exploration and go through with your healing process, your future self will thank you!
Hello Louisa! Thank you very much for your kind words. I appreciate them! Yes, I've always carried the memory with me but it's only recently I've come to realize how traumatic it must have been for me as a 10-year-old kid and how it affected me (and continues to do so). I still have the tendency to downplay it ("Am I exaggerating this?") or even ignore it. I hope you are right and facing and processing all these emotions would enable me to construct a better future self!
I think you are courageous to go back and explore those childhood memories and their effects on you. Self reflection is often the most important step in our healing journey. Keep going!
Thank you for the encouragement Louisa, it means a lot! I do have the tendency to downplay my experience and I have to fight against that almost in a constant fashion, something that I hope to write about in the third installment of the series.
So real and deep and raw. Kudos for writing this. I love that you are writing it all out. We all have traumas in childhood to different degrees, and the traumatic events can go so deep and be so painful. Writing them out with great thought and emotion pouring out onto the page is the best therapy, I’ve found. I commend you so much too.
Thank you very much, Karen, I appreciate it! I tried to be as true to my feelings as I could. I'm glad it came across as "real" and "raw," because that was what I was mostly aiming for. And yes, writing about these traumas helps me process them and relieve the burden I sometimes feel like I carry on my shoulders.
Hi Doga! I commend you for having the courage to share these traumatic memories with such vulnerability. I can tell how traumatized you were as a 10-year-old! Yes, you're right that many of the behavior and decisions made by your adult caregivers weren't well thought out or downright ridiculous. It is a good thing that you are now processing these memories from your adult perspective and leaning in to your feelings. I think the young part in you that had been angry is now thankful for your recognition of this anger. Through writing, you now have access to this very important emotion. I understand how the past events triggered you emotionally after writing it. But triggers are trailheads to what's deeply hidden in our psyche. Painful and uncomfortable emotions often point us to where truth lies--your personal truth. Unless you face it, it will come back again and again to bite you. But if you continue on with your exploration and go through with your healing process, your future self will thank you!
Hello Louisa! Thank you very much for your kind words. I appreciate them! Yes, I've always carried the memory with me but it's only recently I've come to realize how traumatic it must have been for me as a 10-year-old kid and how it affected me (and continues to do so). I still have the tendency to downplay it ("Am I exaggerating this?") or even ignore it. I hope you are right and facing and processing all these emotions would enable me to construct a better future self!
I think you are courageous to go back and explore those childhood memories and their effects on you. Self reflection is often the most important step in our healing journey. Keep going!
Thank you for the encouragement Louisa, it means a lot! I do have the tendency to downplay my experience and I have to fight against that almost in a constant fashion, something that I hope to write about in the third installment of the series.
So real and deep and raw. Kudos for writing this. I love that you are writing it all out. We all have traumas in childhood to different degrees, and the traumatic events can go so deep and be so painful. Writing them out with great thought and emotion pouring out onto the page is the best therapy, I’ve found. I commend you so much too.
Thank you very much, Karen, I appreciate it! I tried to be as true to my feelings as I could. I'm glad it came across as "real" and "raw," because that was what I was mostly aiming for. And yes, writing about these traumas helps me process them and relieve the burden I sometimes feel like I carry on my shoulders.